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Tuesday, 4 August 2026
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Wednesday, 28 September 2022
Retirement Blues (A wife's Dilemma)
His siesta was disturbed by the sound of voices in his living room. Ever since his retirement he had fallen into the habit of sleeping after lunch. Other than his wife's voice he could hear those of a few other ladies who had probably come to his place to exchange the local gossip. Normal courtesy demanded that he greet the ladies but the mention of "Retirement" and 'My Husband' made him pause. Like a true retired person he started eavesdropping. His wife was narrating something.....
"Normally I am a very patient woman" his wife said; "More so with my husband than with others. He sometimes behaves in the most obtuse manner". His interest was piqued and he continued listening." A disagreement would only be resolved when he was out of my area of influence - when he went for work"- his wife continued. "Of late one major thought has been the foremost in my mind. Should I murder him?"
Now he was really curious and this is what his wife had to say....
"Since his retirement he has been a pain in all the imaginable and unimaginable places.I frequently fantasize about the various methods that I can employ to carry out this dastardly act. 'Crime Patrol Dastak' and all such gory shows are not helpful at all. The criminal always gets caught. So I had to look elsewhere for inspiration. I had to devise ways to 'Have my cake and eat it too' I had to have a moment of insight when I could kill and get away with it".
"To say that I looked forward to his retirement so that we could be together would be stretching the reality a bit. In fact I dreaded his last day at work when he would bid goodbyes to his colleagues and stay home permanently. Many times I tried to broach the subject - both obliquely and asking pointed questions - after retirement what? He either ignored these questions, changed the subject or acted as if he did not hear me. On the retirement day he was deposited on my doorstep drunk by his erstwhile colleagues with a bedraggled boquet in his hand and a silly smile on his face. The presence of his colleagues prevented any mishap occurring that day. His friends put him to bed , dusted their hands and left."
" In repose, breathing stertorously, with his mouth open, he presented a very funny picture. The future looked bleak. A part of my mind rationalised that maybe things would be okay and all would be well. Another part of my mind - refused to accept the inevitable - and advised me to run. A night of troubled sleep and I came awake suddenly in panic. I had to prepare lunch and breakfast for my husband to go to the office. Then came the realisation that he had retired and we would be in each other's space till we were parted. I tentatively kicked my husband to wake him up. The first thing he said after waking up was "why did you not wake me up?" (The blame game had already started) "Now I will be late for office..." probably the realisation that he retired also came to him alongwith the hangover and he groaned. He tried to grab me (I don't know what intentions he had but i avoided being puled into the bed again) and when that did not work he picked up the TV remote. Two hours after I left him watching the TV to do the household chores he was still in bed - watching the TV. He ignored all the calls on his mobile and when the calls went unanswered, the callers started calling me. In addition to doing the housework I had become a PA for my husband juggling between the kitchen and the bedroom to make him speak over the telephone. "
" Finally in a fit of desperation when I screamed at him to get out of bed he did so. After getting ready and having his third cup of coffee, reading the newspaper and watching the TV (Such Multi-Tasking would have improved his promotion prospects at his workplace), the next step was to interfere in the housework. The maid was told to sweep properly - he followed her into each room (was he interested in her work or her curves?) to supervise her work. Luckily the maid was an even tempered person who sportingly took his suggestions and left without making a scene. Then started the whining. The bathroom was not clean - where are my books - why is my cupboard in such shambles - where should I put my documents - what is for lunch (This was just after breakfast) - etc. Not a single word about assisting me at work or even sharing the burden. He left a trail of glasses and cups throughout the house and expected me to clean up after him."
" Before I did anything drastic there was a need to lay down certain guidelines for our continued co-existence. This included distribution of housework, time to do other activity, distribution of TV time etc. We did not watch the same programs on TV, and - more importantly how to give each other space while spending days together in the same space. It also included the need for my husband not interfering with the maid or other household staff".
" By lunch time I was in a daze. I felt like a trapped rat who had no route of escape. Lunch was consumed with criticism of both the food and general standard of the household work. Of course an afternoon of repose gave me the much needed sucour to re-organise my thoughts and plan my further actions. The evening slowly slipped into the night. This part of the day was more familiar to both of us as this ws the time my husband came back from work till yesterday. This paticular day was the beginning of a new era.Since my husband was home in the evenings I decided that I would go to the Gym and spend time there. The evening meal was consumed in silence and soon it was bed time. The rigors of the first day left me exhausted and I fell asleep as soon as I hit the pillow. And there was no further scheming that night."
"But then there is always tomorrow......"
His wife's thought process left him stunned. He longed for those days at the office when he felt that he was on the top of the world who had minions in the office and a wife at home. He felt cornered and unloved. He decided to turn over a new leaf and understand his wife's angst. Right now he needed a cup of tea and his wife was wasting time gossiping with her friends.....
Thursday, 15 September 2022
Retro-Review
45 years have passed and the movie is still capable of keeping the audience (Read - My wife and I) spellbound. 45 years have changed us beyond recognition and hopefully the next few years will further change us . For they do say - "Life is one huge cycle"
Tuesday, 13 September 2022
Retirement Blues
And on top of it he was retiring from service. Retirement three years back looked like it was thousands of years away. Now all of a sudden years of inactivity loomed over hin. No more whiling away time at this office. He would have to do it at home. One of the questions nagging him was how would his wife tolerate him? Not that his was an unhappy marriage. In fact his was a dream marriage. They had had the best of times. Of late however his wife was getting a bit bossy. For many days he had wondered at this change. A sweet fun loving lady had turned into a bossy woman. He agonized for months at this change in attitude. And inevitably he turned to the internet for his answers. 'Menopause' the search engine screamed. 4567825 in 0.01seconds it proudly proclaimed. He did not have to go beyond the first page to find out accurately about his wife's symptoms. It explained a lot. "Well" he thought philosophically "I will have to exchange one boss with another"
All those fun times at office when he used to come late just because he could and then since it was already tea time move to the tea room for tea and gossip. It invariably got stretched to an hour and then his conscience would feebly tug at him to do something at the office. His most productive hour was between tea-time in the morning and lunchtime. By the time he had finished a part of his task it was already time for lunch. The lunch usually ended in as animated discussion. A full stomach and the afternoon heat generally put him in a stupor. He used to go through his work like an automaton. The peon would thrust a tea cup in his face at the appointed hour. At this time he generally went to the boss to apprise him of his progress during the day. This interaction had a twofold aim. One was of informing his boss about his presence in the office throughout the day - hard at work - and the other was to ensure that the boss did not miss him when he left for home early.
A smile came to his face when he thought about how he used to fool the bosses. But when he got promoted to a responsible position he realised that the boss always knew about his escapades- because now as the boss - he knew about his subordinates. Probably his bosses were either tolerant, indifferent or were with him for too short a period to make a major difference to his career. It was a worthwhile life. The tomfoolery the handling of emergency situations and finally the sadness that he felt when he would go home. This set off a new trend of thought... He was paying home loan . When he was in service it did not pinch all that much. But with just the pension coming in he would be hard pressed to pay the monthly instalments. But he brightened up when he remembered that he would be getting a lump sum amount from his department. But should he clear the loan or not -was the question that was plaguing him. The internet did not offer any viable solution. Of the few that he read -(3678534 results 0.10 secs) - they were all equally divided in their opinion. He decided to pose the question on his group in WhatsApp. The discussion was lively but yielded little result. While some were for clearing the loan the others told me to sell the house. "You are not going to take the house anywhere after death" they said. Better would be to sell the house and live off the proceedings. Or rather the interest on the proceedings. "What about the children"? He asked. Promptly came the reply "you have contributed to their birth education and even ensured that they got into higher studies. What more can you do?" He disagreed but could not find the courage to put it in the group.
Days passed he was closer to retirement. The need to safeguard the cash that he was getting as a lump sum took him back to the net and of course to his WhatsApp groups. Invest in ritual funds, start a systematic investment plan, put your money in fixed deposits, buy property, buy stocks,set up a start up business- there was no lack of advice - only his reluctance to step out of his comfort zone. He already was having sleepless nights about the money he had yet to receive and invest. Each day resulted in thinking up new actions that he had to take prior to retirement so as to ensure a trouble free after - retirement life. It was not fair life used to be so simple when he was a child his parents were responsible for everything and one only needed to bother about his next meal and the rest would take care of itself.
Just when he was hoping to sit back and relax he suddenly came to the realisation that all his life he had struggled and now was the time to sit back and enjoy the fruits of his long years of service- but would he be able to ....?
Friday, 9 April 2021
The Perfect Murder.
I was meeting my friend after a long time. When we were in school we were BFFs. We were called the odd couple in school. She was beautiful calm and collected and I was boisterous and something of a tomboy. She was good at studies and I - well - I was average. She did not socialise much while I had all sorts of friends and boyfriends. By the time we were in the twelfth grade people in school were betting on my
repeating the grade, while she was touted to top the school - if not the state. To prove my detractors wrong, I pulled out all stops, dug into my reserves and somehow managed to graduate from school. Our interests being different, the time had come for me to say goodbye to my friend. It was a poignant moment when we had to part ways. We promised to keep in touch. For better part of the ensuing years we did manage to keep in touch . She graduated at the top of her class and I did reasonably well to stay afloat. I joined the police after clearing the Indian Police Service exam, thus gaining the distinction of being the select few women from my school to do so. Pressures of the job and some hiccups on the personal front made our meetings and correspondence non existent over a period of time.
On one of our infrequent calls that we now communicated on she suddenly dropped a bombshell that she was now married. The news was so momentous that I was stunned. The feeling of hurt came in later - at her not inviting me to her nuptials. I philosophized that she must have her reasons for not doing so... Perhaps the hurt festered in my subconscious resulting in distance between us being increased all the more. For the next few years we did not speak at all. Whenever I did think about her I rationalized that she was happily married and this kept me from disturbing her marital bliss.
My professional duties finally landed me in the city wher she was staying. The thought of meeting her after such a long time gave me goosebumps. Of course I sent out my minions to get her address. Not like her to be on the facebook or instagram or any other social media . She had a different phone number too. It was clear that she did not want to be in contact. In anycase my police resources pitted against the puny efforts of my friend to stay incognito proved to be victorious when I was handed her adress as well as her phone number. When I contacted her she did not seem surprised. There were a lot of questions in my mind - but she cut me off saying - " Why don't we meet up at _____" She gave me the name of an upscale hotel in the city. I had to curb my questions till we met in person.
My heart was full of excitement at the thought of meetingher. When she walked in a few minutes later, all heads turned. The sari clung to her figure as if it was customized for her. She wore her age well. No polite pecks on the cheeks for us - we hugged each other long and hard. All the years of being apart just faded away in that one contact. We sat across each other silently savoring the togetherness. We spoke at once- "So-" "How-" our words clashed somewhere in the mid table region -we burst out laughing. The preliminaries of ordering the drinks being done away with, I said "congratulations on your marriage" I said. The response to my greetings were hardly what I expected. She didn't say much and changed the topic, asking me about my marital status and as to my activity in the intervening years. I launched on a long drawn tale of my ups and downs and as to how it all culminated in my joining the police force. Her delight at my success was reflected in the joy on her face. We navigated the next hour or so without her ever referring to her family life. My curiosity was more than ever at its peak and in one of those pregnant pauses which are a part of any conversation I managed bring up the subject of her family once more.
"I don't have any children" she said. "And I thank my stars that we have been issueless". I was shocked at this indifference. Perhaps this was seen on my face , because she continued "oh and my husband passed away recently" she said. I was stunned - not by the fact that her her husband was dead but - by the casual manner in which she mentioned it. I was at loss for words; "Tell me about it " was all I could say. She took a gulp of water and she started off by saying, "Do you know how as children we craved for stability - and as we grew older we hoped that we would get a husband as good as our dads used to be?" I let her continue. After a brief pause she launched into her life story. Somehow I felt that it was going to be a long evening , I surreptitiously sent a message to my office that I was unavailable for the rest of the evening,
"After I graduated I met this amazing man" she continued "or so I thought" she said. "My husband was a cruel sadistic and a horrible person. He started picking on every small fault of mine and magnified it. My life became a living hell with him. That is until I conceived. I was hoping against hope that it would improve my lot. And for a period it did. And then one day he came home in a bad mood and started thrashing me for reasons beyond my comprehension. Was he drunk probably I would have forgiven him. But I could see that malicious look of enjoyment on his face - as though he was pleasuring himself. I could see that cruel sadistic streak surfacing in his eyes. I went through a gamut of emotions. The foremost among them being that of protecting my yet unborn child... "
"I woke up in a hospital with the doctor waiting to confirm my wellbeing. Once the doctor had done that, he told me with appropriate gravity and compassion that I had lost my child. For the next few hours I was in a state of shock and depression. I knew that any complaint by me would be quashed by my husband's wealth. Then I thought of putting an end to my misery by killing myself. Then the anger in me took over. If anything - I reasoned- it was my husband who had to pay and not me." She was silent for a moment with a faraway look in her eyes. And then she said "I decided to kill him".
I hastened to remind her that I was a police officer and any such confession might be detrimental to her welfare. She continued as though she had not heard me. "After a few days in the hospital I went home. Many methods of putting him away came to me , but I discarded all of them because each scenario ended in my going to jail - which I was not prepared to do so. After that incident my husband left me alone to myself. Each day of life with him was a torture more so when we went into a lockdown due to COVID-19. Rather than stay at home, I decided to help in the local hospital as a volunteer. And there the plan to kill my husband concretised. I found out that a lot of people with previously existing conditions were more vulnerable to death due to COVID 19."
I tried to interrupt but she put up her hand stalling any protestations from me. " I put the first part of my plan in action - which was to contract COVID-19. With my deliberate flaunting of rules for prevention, it was not long before I contracted it. I could feel the headache and bodyache as well as the sense of loss of smell which were a part of the symptoms. A test at an anonymous lab confirmed my suspiscions. I was COVID positive. The second part of the plan was to keep my symptoms a secret - which I managed admirably with the help of a few medications and good acting. I put up with my husband for the next few days including his carnal needs without a protest. The close proximity of those few days proved successful, when one morning he woke up with a fever and bodyaches.
The next few days I nursed him. Things took a turn for the worse when he started experiencing breathing difficuties. I moved him to the hospital. The next few days were crucial to my plan. The doctors did their best. But his existing conditions of asthma and diabetes did the rest for me. One morning the doctor woke me up to inform me that my husband was no more."
"He died intestate and as his legal wedded wife I was the sole heir to his millions." She stopped here to take a breath and refresh herself with a drink. I did'nt know what to say. Her story left me incapable of speech. The legal ramifications in this case were nil. No way that she could be prosecuted.
In fact it was the perfect murder.
I think the reason that my friend told me the story was because of the huge burden she was bearing - which she wanted to lighten. After a few more minutes of awkward talk we promised to meet again.
As I left the hotel I was filled both with admiration and loathing for what my friend did. Admiration being the dominant emotion. Just as i stepped out I received a call from my boss. He was an insufferable ass whose main concern was to keep his subordinates on their toes in an insulting manner. Maybe time has come to try on my boss what my friend did to her husband.....
Friday, 31 July 2020
The Good Doctor
